difference of childish and mature -_-"

Today, I found out that guys are separated into 2 kinds. Some of them are childish but some are mature. I compare some of them; make me think that guys are really scary because those which are childish will do something that it is unexpected. I played basketball with 2 groups of guys. The first group, some of them are almost the same age with us but all of them are older than us. When playing basketball with them, they won’t be saying that girls are weak but they will give girls a chance to show ourselves. They will set some rules like guys can’t shot the ball at an area or when girls are going to shot the ball, they won’t attack the girls. They are only few guys will play basketball with girls. They won’t look down at girls or they won’t think that losing to girls is a shame. These kinds of guys are known as the mature ones.

The second team is the childish ones. They will keep on playing “one man show”. They won’t let girls have the chance to shot the ball and keep on attacking girls. They will also use some rude words to do body attack. Make girls angry with their words. They are not enjoying the game but just wanted to win. For them, losing to girls is a shame. While playing with them, they are very rude; keep on pushing or just wanted to let you foul. Your mood will be affected during playing basketball with them. They don’t think much but for them win is the most important thing.

I had talk to 2 of my good friends here. I told them everything; what I think of them and what had they did that hurt me. One of them cried because I said that she changed a lot, not the person that I knew last time. I think she will “be back soon” with our help. I really treasure them because i know it's hard to me to find someone that really treasure me. The most important thing is, i will always treasure the relationship with the guairens.

college's life

I did something that I think should be done in college's life. Yesterday night I went to play basketball. It was around 10 something, we played till 12 midnight. It really fun because seems like I'm back to my high school period. After volleyball training, me, yen and hwa went to play basketball with shen. He's the only guy that will play basketball with us and compete with the other guys. That time I played till the whole shirt wet. Even tough I'm tired but I enjoy that feeling. Playing with friends and all the stress and unhappy things are gone. Yesterday I had the same feeling too. I knew some new friends that like to play basketball and also volleyball. They are really nice peoples. The moment we played, we were enjoying and keep on laughing. We were competing to each other. Then the next day I'm having classes at 8 in the morning. I know that I will be very tired when having class but at least while I'm playing, I enjoyed it. This is the college's life that I want. Do something that is unexpected.

My day...

Yesterday we went to play badminton. I played till all wet. I think I was the only one played till so wet, seems like I had taken a bath or I went under the rain. It was fun and besides playing, can also keep fit. We went to have a sit and rest for a while. After that we all went to the place that we loved the most, arcade. We brought more friends there. The game we loved the most, of course is initial D. I was very happy because I won a guy called old man. He loses to me once before but after that no one ever loses to him. I am the champion. Yue also not bad, she won peter also. That’s mean girls also can win guys when racing cars. The old man was very mad when he loses to me so he keeps on challenging me. I won the first and second match but lose to him at the third match. He played with me was just to prove that he can win me. At that moment, for me guys wanted to prove that they were the best and can win girls in everything. That makes me think that guys are very stubborn. After happy, sure have something that is unhappy. I went to my cousin’s factory; he wanted me to teach him how to download songs. He told me that he will go Emily’s grandma house eat dinner. I did not follow them. I was alone at the factory, yue phone me whether wanted them to come fetch me back after they ate their dinner. I do not know how; go back with them or wait till my cousin back. I chose to go back with them because I was really tired. Then I think my cousin was mad at me because actually he wanted me to help him today but he did not call me. He will always call me when he wanted me to help him. I do not know how to face him. My mummy call me just now, she had finish her vacation. She went to Bali Island and K.L with her friends. Now she is in Miri. Hope that today will have a nice day.

today :D

Today I woke up very early because I went to help my cousin. After that, he brought me to a lunch then brought me back hostel. Yue and I actually wanted to go bank and get some money but because of some problem we did not take money. We went to Parkson, ate many things at KFC. We jog for many days but because of the KFC, waste the time we went to jog. Have to do more exercise to overcome the KFC we ate just now. Then, song's cola accidentally drop and it splash on my jeans. It was very funny because side of my jeans was wet. We went to the arcade at sing kwong. I and yue persuade the others to play the initial D racing car with us. It was fun because long time did not play till so enjoy. We play for so many times until all of us were sweating. It was really fun and all of us were laughing and shouting. I think since I come back here, today can be counted as the happiest day. Even tough I am really tired for many days but when say about play I will be very excited. Yue ate a jelly just now, she stand behind me. The jelly fell on my shirt. How unlucky am I? Both my jeans and clothes got food and drinks drop on them. I know it was just an accident. My shoulders are very pain, feel like it will break very soon. But I think tonight I will still sleep late. I am now alone at the hostel, don't know where yue go. I was playing red alert just now, I did not play for such a long time. So, it was quite happy when I know my friend has this game. Tomorrow we are going to play badminton, hope that tomorrow will be a nice day. Thanks to Zing Seng, he brought me out today. Nice day to everyone. Just now I receive a chocolate from my little angel. I have a little angel but I don't know who he or she is. I am so happy. Thanks to my little angel.

life!!!

I'm exhausted! I feel like there's no one I can trust beside yue when I'm here. If I was having bad mood, I would choose not to let anyone know. Even tough I have a cousin here but when I was at his house, he would put his anger on me. Let me feel like there was no place that I can stay when I need a break. I found a really cruel thing, it is when someone needs your help or when they have nothing to do, it is the only time they will look for you. I really hate this kind of feeling cause I choose to trust everyone but what I got return is something like when they wanted to find me then only they will talk to me. But when I was alone, there were no one with me. I treat everyone good, what I have, I will share. Will think of them when I went shopping or whenever I saw something that I think suits them I will buy it. I will choose to be happy in front of everyone because I don't want my friends to think that I'm always moody. That's all. Doesn't mean that I'm really happy; just want to see everyone is laughing when I'm talking or when they are playing with me. Another thing is I hate people saying back the things that I had done before. I done it before is just my thinking not mature enough, doesn't means that I'm still like before. I have changed! But no ones notice about it, people will just remember the things that I had done before and keep on saying about it. Not really keep on saying but when someone says about it, I will really feel sad. I know I should not do that but everyone is learning and growing up while they do something wrong. I had learned my lesson but seems like it is nothing for everyone. Cruel world! Hate this place a lot; it gave me a lot of sad and unhappy memories. Make me miss my schoolmates and the memories we had before. Good luck guys, I know you guys maybe will also face the same problem as me. But we have to be tougher while we are studying in college and university. Hope that we can meet as soon as possible. I know I'm just a clown in front of you guys; you guys are the best for me. I found out something, it is hard for us to make a friend that you can share your entire secret when in college or university. Maybe the best time for us to make best friend that can share secret only when in primary or secondary school.

always beside me!!!

i wanted to dedicate this song to the "guairens". Thanks for being with me whenever i need you girls. thanks a lot.

going back soon... :(

i spent the whole day playing at ruey hwa's house. i went there in the early morning. both of us spent the whole day don't know doing what. just play and watching some movies. both of us spent a lot of time learn to use the photoshop to edit photo. it's quite fun cause can learn more things. we also got take photo just now. hehe. we use a new method to take photo, it's nt buy using camera and phone. we use my laptop to take photo. very fun when taking photo. we make many funny faces, some of the photos are quite funny. today is the last day of the holiday i went to her house and play, because i am going back tomorrow. sigh~!! haha. it's ok because i will be back soon. don't know how's my life there... happy? unhappy? stressful? don't know~!!!

it's complicated!!!

jus nw watch da chao ji xing guang da dao. hehe. i watch da episod dat my laogong-xu wen jie being kick out of da competition le. sigh sigh~!! i so sad when c he lose even tough i noe da results earlier le. i was so down when watchin den gt c*y. wahaha. den yue msg me n tel me dat i pass all subject. actuali i was reali down but when hear da news dat i pass, i'm reali hapi. but ah, when feel lyk wanna go bak, i don hv mood le. feel lyk goin bak wil onli sad n unhapi nia. hai~~ i'm reali crazy over da xing guang bang!!!! hope dat when i go bak wont hv stupid things happen. plssssss