Sorry and Thank you

Today is the last day of year 2007. So, I have something to tell my friends. Hope that everyone will be happy when the New Year starts.

I want to say sorry,
To those whom ever hurt by me
To those whom I’m being rude
To those whom ever quarrel with me
To those whom were disappointed by me
To those whom were sad and unhappy because of me

I want to say thank you,
To those whom ever help me
To those whom were beside me when I need them
To those whom give me advice
To those whom hate me
To those whom make me happy

Wish you all have a very lucky and happy year. Hope that everything will be going smoothly and will get good results during exams, happy always, have a healthy body, all your wish may come true and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

troublesome go away!!!!

I’m exhausted. I had no time to update my blog(sorry for that). I had no enough sleep then need to do lots of work. I was helping my cousin for this holiday. Everyday need to do lots of things, can’t sleep even I’m tired. I knew that they were more tired than me but I don’t really suits myself to this kind of life. If helping for few days were fine but if for the whole holiday I can’t. Even though I can’t I still need to work everyday and let myself suits this kind of life because I need to pay the money for the trip to Kuching last time. I cut my hands, forget things that I need to do, always not in the mood and think lots of things (don’t know what I’m thinking), and can’t sleep well in the night. I had lots of things to worry and also to do. But I don’t have the time to do. Hope that everything will be better when the New Year comes. Troublesome loves to be with me, whatever I do there will be a trouble waiting for me.

bad mood!!

I was having bad mood from early morning till now. Everything that I do was not going smoothly. My hands were pain and there was a bubble on it. I put my hand into the hot water then my brain told me that,” girl, the water is hot!” Then only I took my hand out but it was too late. I also sprained my hand. I’m really exhausted. I keep on washing things and helping for 6 hours. I heard a bad news from my mum. Oh shit!!! Don’t ask me what happened. I’m here just to release all my stress.

pictures.. Floodin!!!

The whole neighbour hood is gone!!
Very scary...
Half of the gate is gone...

The water has covered the ground floor.
At the town...
Fire station

The water level has covered the whole car tyre.
The water goes in my aunt's house.
My aunt's house


The kids are playing..
Chalky and milky water...

Traffic congestion

The kancil was so brave~!!

The rescuer and the boat.

The whole road is fully with water..

Flooding!!! Oops!!

I had been very excited since early morning. I woke up early at around 3a.m in the morning. Know why I’m excited? Hehe. It was because Sibu is flooded. Wow! This is the second time I saw flooding in Sibu. The roads and even the houses were being attacked by the flooding. The last time I saw flooding was on my cousin’s marriage ceremony, I think it was 3 years ago. The water level was so high, it covered until my knee. This flooding cause heavy traffic congestion and also some of the people need to move their things to other places. This flooding made a lot of people can’t go to work, causes a lot of problems to the people here. For my cousins, they faced some problems too. My aunt house was flooded; they had to move the cars to the roadside. They had to carry the stock from the house to the car, it was quite bothersome.

Some of the places really faced serious flooded. We went to send stock to some places; the water level was too high for the normal. Luckily their car is higher. Some of the car can’t move and stuck on the road, some car can’t even pass through the flooded road; some of the peoples were carrying their kids leaving their flooded house. Even though I was excited to see flooding but they were really pity.

I think few years later Sibu will be sinking because the ground level was lowered. Hope that it won’t rain till the water become lower. This is one of the Sibu’s characteristic. Flood when there is heavy rain. There are some interesting pictures which are taken by photographer zhong AR yee !

Early in the morning ^^

The car was stucked and cant moved...

The drain is full with water

The road is fully covered with water

All the things are floating above the water

The cat is so pity, on top of the roof :(

The whole village is flooding

My aunt's house...

The plants are dyin...

Help!! the motorcycles are drowning.. haha

My cousin and his wife~!!! so sweet... +_+

it was so shame!!!!!!

I had been moody since morning, feel like something bad will be happening. Something really happens. In the afternoon, I helped my cousin. His factory was very wet and slippery. I was so “lucky”, my shoes were too slippery then I slipped and fell. I was lying on the floor; luckily my head didn’t knock on the floor. Luckily only the maid saw me fell. It was really shame. I haven’t fallen for quite a long time since yue’s birthday. I hope that there will be a hole for me to hide inside or there will be a guy showing his hand to pull me up (same as the fairly tales), but I know it was just a dream. If there’s a guy showing his hand like a gentleman, I will fly up to the sky. I will sure fall in love with that person. As if it will happen. It was just a stupid and impossible dream!!

Money $$

Most of my friends at the college are working on the holidays. They are earning their own pocket money to minimize the burden of their family. They were spending the holidays not for playing but earning money. I need to learn from them because I really spent a lot when I was studying this few months and the trip to Kuching. It seems like I need to grow up and learn to earn money by my own and not spending so much money. Holidays are not for playing but earning money?? Am I right??

stress...

I’m having so much stress because of someone which makes me had a nightmare last night. I didn’t sleep well and dream of something that’s scary. My shoulder was so pain and I can’t even do anything. I am so tired now. I know it's the time for me to learn how to release stress but not blaming anyone or anything. Thanks for those who were beside me yesterday. Thanks a lot.

why? how come?

害怕，
别人的关心
别人对我好
别人的好意
别人的疼爱
别人的保护


因为，
担心对他们不够好
担心不小心的伤害
担心只是一场误会
担心那只是同情
担心只有一瞬间

不知道
从什么时候开始
会想很多
会害怕
会担心

可是，
还是希望
被关心
被疼爱
被保护

应该是多心
为什么我会想这么多呢？
还是不能阻止自己胡思乱想

hapi bufday 2 guairen 4!!!!

hapi bufday 2 u,
hapi bufday 2 u,
hapi bufday 2 ah hwa,
hapi bufday 2 u.


hehe. i can't sing dis song 2 u dis yr n oso can't help u 2 celebrate. but anyway, may all ur dream cum true. jia you. all da best,

Emily~!!!

I found something cute that happen just now. My little niece named Emily. She’s so cute and funny. Nowadays, the kids are so clever. Her dad made her bottle fall and she asked her dad, how come you didn’t say sorry. When I heard what she said, I couldn’t stop laughing. It was really funny to see a 3 years old kid saying this. She keeps on saying things that the adults say. When she’s angry, she told her dad and mum that beware of her because she will scold them. She also makes ugly faces to her parents. It was so funny. All her thinking and reactions are totally same as the adults. It was quite fun when she's around.

Cute little emily...

headache...

Oh my god!! My head is going to burst. It starts raining from the early morning. I went out without an umbrella and now I’m having headache. Everyone must remember to bring umbrella when it’s raining outside. It is because it’s quite suffering when headache. This makes my mood very bad.

I feel like everyone besides me keep on saying something about love. Is love everything for everyone? I don’t think so. Then I found out something, the thinking of human is really strange. And also the relationships between humans are weak and can’t be tested.

Sorry to someone because I think I'm rude to you. If I'm realy rude or hurt you, I'm sorry.

Tagged...

I was tagged...

Q1. You can’t stand the most?
A person that is over confidence and proud.
Q2. What is true love?
I don’t really know. Maybe is something that enjoying life with the person that you loved.
Q3. What you hope before death?
Done everything that I wanted to do and enjoying my life.
Q4. Had one-night stand before? Why?
Of course not, because I hate that kind of things?? Not really know.
Q5. Will you change the point-of-view of a particular person because of his words?
Not really, I will find out whether is that the truth or not.
Q6. What you wanted the most to accomplish now?
All the assignments.
Q7. If your husband have an ultra-marriage love, will you cry or fight or suicide?
Of course not, what’s the point? I will be tougher and live happily ever after.
Q8. How can you feel happiness?
When everything going smoothly.

The following 8 luckiest persons, you know what you should do?
Ruey hwa
Wan yen
Hua lik
Yung wah
Zhi siong
Khim
Zing Seng
Pei yi

happy... ^^

Finally we had ended our trip at Kuching. Feels like a boring holidays going to start soon. Everyone went back to their hometown but I’m going to stay here. Ha-ha. It’s ok for me because I need 2 concentrate on my assignments and my sister and brother won’t be at home.

I spent the whole day at grandpa’s hostel, online and chit chatting. Grandma came and played with us. At night time we went out and eat. Grandma brought us went shopping. We went to visit my father and also grandpa. We saw funny masks and wore it. I’m having quite a happy day. Keep on doing something funny and stupid. I love and enjoying this kind of life.

This is what we did at the supermarket. A small kid saw us taking photo, her emotion shows that how come we were doing this.

Friendss...

Our trip had ended today. Everyone went back for their holidays. We were separated, some going back by plane to miri, to sibu; we went back to sibu by bus. I went to the airport to say goodbye with them. I ever told khim that her friends didn't treated her as a closed friend. She talked to me, she said that she also feel that they had something hiding her. She felt very upset. I'm a kind of person that is very sensitive with those relationships thing. But she's those even someone betray her, she doesn't know. I hope that she will be tougher to face everything and become more alert to everything.

It rains the whole journey. I become moody and start thinking all those nonsense. I felt lucky because I think a lot. That makes me know what the others are thinking and also what will happened later. Besides that, I will also alert to everything that are surrounding me. I hate those who say my thinking is childish. Please stop saying me childish. I admit that while I'm playing, I'm childish. But my thinking is not childish; at least I'm more mature compare to the others.

trip at kuching...

Just now we went shopping and bought many things; spent a lot of money. I become moody, I just released that I spent a lot of money within this 2 months. I felt sorry to my mum because I spent money to buy many useless things. When they were playing snooker, I don't even have the mood the play with them. I can't stop thinking that matter. But when I knew that we are going to karaoke, I felt very excited.

I was unhappy because the plan that we had planned not going smoothly. The place that we wanted to go had closed down. Actually they wanted to watch movie while we went to sing. Then because of us, they went to find another place to sing. We were really unlucky, that place was full of peoples. Me and yue decide not to sing and went to eat supper. Some of them feel unhappy because if not both of us, they were already watching movie at the cinema. I felt like because of us, many peoples were not happy.

We don't want them to be unhappy then both of us start to be crazy. We told everyone that we love them. Started to laugh, shout, sing and being crazy. Everyone felt that both of us were childish because do such a boring and stupid things. We just want everyone to be happy. At last we end up with eating supper. Luckily everyone smile and having fun while eating supper.

We took lots of pictures, today is the last day we were in kuching. I don't want to go back so fast because I still wanted to go shopping and play with my fake "family". We had lots of fun on this trip.

need to stop thinkin

I need to stop thinking all the nonsense. Stop!! I keep on thinking the nonsense and make myself bad mood. Why I will become like this? I'm doing nothing but just keep on turning my brain. This makes me having really bad mood. I don't know that whether I wrote the blog yesterday is a correct thing or not. Many peoples will think that I'm childish, but I just wanted to let everyone knows that why I was having bad mood. Today, something that make me bad mood happens. It's about assignments things. All the assignments that our lecturers gave were really difficult. I don't know whether I can finish it or not even tough we had a 1 month holidays. Then, I keep on thinking the same thing that happened yesterday. I forgave 1 of them because I receive a sorry. For the other one, I can't forgive you. You didn't say sorry and don't even felt sorry to me. You are too selfish; the things that you think are only about you yourself. You will just say that I'm too childish for everything. I'm fed up with you, how can you be so selfish?

Just now a friend message me, I ask that person whether thinks that I'm very childish to write that blog. That person say can't be said out. I feel sad. How come no one understands what I'm thinking and keep on saying that I'm childish? My mood is being affected because of that message. I had a long talk with yue and ask her whether I did the wrong things or not. It is because I think that everything that I did sure will have someone says that I'm too childish to do that or say that I need not care so much. They really don't know what I'm thinking.

Thanks to my friends; who gave me presents, who greet me, who celebrate with me. I really appreciate what you all did. The happiest thing is that I received a mickey mouse's necklace, bracelet and shirt from my friends. Thanks for being so nice to me.

Worst birthday ever :'(

Thanks a lot to those friends and peoples that greet me birthday, I'm very happy to receive the greetings. But, I'm having bad mood today. I don't know why those unhappy things happen when I'm happy. Just now our lecturer told us that we will have an assignment to do during the holidays, this is not the problem. The problem is it needs to finish in group, it can't finish in individually. I start to think, who are the peoples that willing to do the assignment with me? It is because something happened before. Sigh~! This is the first thing that why I'm unhappy. The second is my cousin wants me to help him and I need to spend the time for my assignment to help him. I don't want to reject him because I had already rejected him once. The third is I have no enough time to finish my assignments. I thought that I can do it after class but who knows? The fourth is I will have lunch with my hostel's friends but I don't think that I can come back on time; I don't want to disappoint them. The fifth is I think I had made someone feel annoying because when I need help, I will keep on asking. I know both of us have to do the same assignments, you have your own to finish. Sorry if I really bother you and make you feel annoying.

The unlucky things not only that, when I went back to hostel I keep rushing for my assignment because I don't want them to wait for me. When I called them, they told me that they had left. I was angry at them because they didn't wait for me. No one called me and confirms whether I was following or not. Not only that, when yue called them and ask why didn't they wait for me. They said that someone said that I'm not going. My god! I really very upset because they are those I treated the best in the hostel. All of them went and left me alone. Tomorrow is the due date for my assignment and they went to print themselves. I was very sad, I cried. I care you guys but no one cares for me. Those who i just get along with them will still care for my feelings but you guys wont!!!!!!!!!!! What are friends for????

Then, I wanted to thank yue and kang ming, both of them accompany me go print my assignments. We went by bus. They told me that they will celebrate with me tonight but I have no mood to celebrate with them. Then, they told me that I had to appreciate those who willing to celebrate with me. I choose to go for the celebration. The worst thing is, they didn’t felt sorry to me. They just keep on asking me whether I'm angry. WTF!!! How can I not angry them? I'm taking the same course with them, they have assignments to pass up; so am I. How can you guys be so selfish? I treated you guys so well but at the end this is what I got back. I told them that I'm angry, they didn't say sorry to me. They just show that they are unhappy. WHAT?? I should be the one very angry and unhappy. How you guys can did this me? This is the worst birthday ever!!!

anyone can help me?

I will be very busy within this few days, I need to finish all 4 assignments within this few days, but I haven't started anything yet. Everyone is worrying for their assignment but I'm playing everyday. I know I shouldn't be like this but I can't control myself. Once there are people playing, I will sure join them. I don't even have a schedule for my assignments. I know that I should work harder for the progress test and also assignments, but I won't even think of doing when I'm free. There are many friends and peoples that beside me and will ask me to study and start doing assignments, the reaction I gave them is “I will study or do tomorrow”. Thanks to those who ever advice and pushing me during test and assignments. I will try to change and become good girl, don't play so much and studies must be the first but not playing. I start to sleep late everyday, play with all the friends. Besides that, I love to think a lot when I am alone. I was kept thinking many things but I don’t know what I was thinking. I love to see peoples' action and also reaction, try to know what they are thinking at that time. Once I start thinking or I have nothing to do, straight away I will be very moody. Which will let people thinks that I'm having bad mood, I wasn't having bad mood is just I was thinking a lot. Who can help me with this?? I start to give myself a lot of stress which I will never do it before... I really feel stress but I don't know how to release my stress beside playing...

sy n yue r crazy gals...

Yesterday I woke up early just to study for my progress test. This was the first time I being hard working in my studies. I felt so happy because I know all the answers for the test. Even tough I can’t get full marks but I am really happy for what I did. Actually, I studied so hard is just wanted to win a person. But I wanted to thank that person, if not I won’t be studying so hard. I will just ignore the progress test and simply do. I felt that studying actually is a quite happy thing. When you memorized all the points and can do every question with confidence. I will study hard for all the progress test and also exam. I’m sure I can do it.

In the afternoon, we go played volleyball. I was so happy because I found quite a lot if peoples that played volleyball. We played till the sky become dark then we walked out to eat and celebrate because I know how to do the progress test.

After the dinner, we went to school and played a game. The game needs quite a lot of peoples to play. The game consists of a killer, spy, doctor and citizens. The citizens and spy need to cooperate to find out who is the killer. Me and khim are so good in acting, no one knows that both of us were the killer when it was our turn.

Crazy girls, yue and yee, went to the boy’s hostel and play mahjong from 2 o’clock midnight till 5 something in the morning. Both of us didn’t feel sleepy and we had classes at 8 o’clock in the morning. I went back and took a bath, I slept at 6 something. After around an hour, I woke up. Yue didn’t go to school. I was so surprise that I can sleep a little then still go to school. I love this kind of college’s life a lot. Even tough I played a lot but I still study for all the test and exam. My time is fully used.

bowling...

Today I was so excited because we have a basketball friendly match with the other group of the student Christian fellowship. The friendly match has cancelled because it was raining since morning. We changed our trip to play bowling. I was so lucky that I'm still under 18 years old; I pay lesser than the others because all of them are above 18. We played 2 matches. It was quite fun because it was such a long time I didn’t play bowling. All the guys were so strong; their marks were higher than all the girls. They had many styles of throwing the ball like by using two hands. They were so funny, keep on saying nonsense. After that, we went to eat but some of the others went back to the hostel. The shop name is “chopstick”, the services were so lousy. We order “salad sotong”, but all we ate is just the flour. While we were ordering foods, the waiter said that it was better for us to order the same foods so that the foods would be cooked faster. How a waiter cans said that to the customer. It was the worst shop ever. I would never go there.

sick...

I went to play basketball with the guys yesterday. I don't know what the reason that my leg cramp at the midnight. I keep on shouting pain then yue was woken up by me. She thought I was saying dream words. Then she helped me. Sorry yue, I woke you up in the midnight. Morning when I woke up by the alarm, I ask yue to wake up but actually she was having classes at 10. Thanks to yue by saving my leg.

Today I don't know why suddenly got a cold. I was not feeling well but I was having classes form 8 in the morning till 3 in the afternoon. I felt so uncomfortable because I keep on sneezing and make me can't concentrate to what the lecturers were teaching. In the afternoon the weather was so hot but I was wearing the jacket. I didn’t feel hot.

Just now we went to play basketball again and also ping pong. Everyone enjoys the time when playing. Then we went to the coffee shop and have a break. We were talking and laughing around. There was nothing to eat because the time is too late. Our friend drove us to a place that is far from our college. That place was very spooky, no one lives there and there was no car passing by. When we returned, we sang the children song that we learnt before. At that moment, everyone becomes a small kid.

difference of childish and mature -_-"

Today, I found out that guys are separated into 2 kinds. Some of them are childish but some are mature. I compare some of them; make me think that guys are really scary because those which are childish will do something that it is unexpected. I played basketball with 2 groups of guys. The first group, some of them are almost the same age with us but all of them are older than us. When playing basketball with them, they won’t be saying that girls are weak but they will give girls a chance to show ourselves. They will set some rules like guys can’t shot the ball at an area or when girls are going to shot the ball, they won’t attack the girls. They are only few guys will play basketball with girls. They won’t look down at girls or they won’t think that losing to girls is a shame. These kinds of guys are known as the mature ones.

The second team is the childish ones. They will keep on playing “one man show”. They won’t let girls have the chance to shot the ball and keep on attacking girls. They will also use some rude words to do body attack. Make girls angry with their words. They are not enjoying the game but just wanted to win. For them, losing to girls is a shame. While playing with them, they are very rude; keep on pushing or just wanted to let you foul. Your mood will be affected during playing basketball with them. They don’t think much but for them win is the most important thing.

I had talk to 2 of my good friends here. I told them everything; what I think of them and what had they did that hurt me. One of them cried because I said that she changed a lot, not the person that I knew last time. I think she will “be back soon” with our help. I really treasure them because i know it's hard to me to find someone that really treasure me. The most important thing is, i will always treasure the relationship with the guairens.

college's life

I did something that I think should be done in college's life. Yesterday night I went to play basketball. It was around 10 something, we played till 12 midnight. It really fun because seems like I'm back to my high school period. After volleyball training, me, yen and hwa went to play basketball with shen. He's the only guy that will play basketball with us and compete with the other guys. That time I played till the whole shirt wet. Even tough I'm tired but I enjoy that feeling. Playing with friends and all the stress and unhappy things are gone. Yesterday I had the same feeling too. I knew some new friends that like to play basketball and also volleyball. They are really nice peoples. The moment we played, we were enjoying and keep on laughing. We were competing to each other. Then the next day I'm having classes at 8 in the morning. I know that I will be very tired when having class but at least while I'm playing, I enjoyed it. This is the college's life that I want. Do something that is unexpected.

My day...

Yesterday we went to play badminton. I played till all wet. I think I was the only one played till so wet, seems like I had taken a bath or I went under the rain. It was fun and besides playing, can also keep fit. We went to have a sit and rest for a while. After that we all went to the place that we loved the most, arcade. We brought more friends there. The game we loved the most, of course is initial D. I was very happy because I won a guy called old man. He loses to me once before but after that no one ever loses to him. I am the champion. Yue also not bad, she won peter also. That’s mean girls also can win guys when racing cars. The old man was very mad when he loses to me so he keeps on challenging me. I won the first and second match but lose to him at the third match. He played with me was just to prove that he can win me. At that moment, for me guys wanted to prove that they were the best and can win girls in everything. That makes me think that guys are very stubborn. After happy, sure have something that is unhappy. I went to my cousin’s factory; he wanted me to teach him how to download songs. He told me that he will go Emily’s grandma house eat dinner. I did not follow them. I was alone at the factory, yue phone me whether wanted them to come fetch me back after they ate their dinner. I do not know how; go back with them or wait till my cousin back. I chose to go back with them because I was really tired. Then I think my cousin was mad at me because actually he wanted me to help him today but he did not call me. He will always call me when he wanted me to help him. I do not know how to face him. My mummy call me just now, she had finish her vacation. She went to Bali Island and K.L with her friends. Now she is in Miri. Hope that today will have a nice day.

today :D

Today I woke up very early because I went to help my cousin. After that, he brought me to a lunch then brought me back hostel. Yue and I actually wanted to go bank and get some money but because of some problem we did not take money. We went to Parkson, ate many things at KFC. We jog for many days but because of the KFC, waste the time we went to jog. Have to do more exercise to overcome the KFC we ate just now. Then, song's cola accidentally drop and it splash on my jeans. It was very funny because side of my jeans was wet. We went to the arcade at sing kwong. I and yue persuade the others to play the initial D racing car with us. It was fun because long time did not play till so enjoy. We play for so many times until all of us were sweating. It was really fun and all of us were laughing and shouting. I think since I come back here, today can be counted as the happiest day. Even tough I am really tired for many days but when say about play I will be very excited. Yue ate a jelly just now, she stand behind me. The jelly fell on my shirt. How unlucky am I? Both my jeans and clothes got food and drinks drop on them. I know it was just an accident. My shoulders are very pain, feel like it will break very soon. But I think tonight I will still sleep late. I am now alone at the hostel, don't know where yue go. I was playing red alert just now, I did not play for such a long time. So, it was quite happy when I know my friend has this game. Tomorrow we are going to play badminton, hope that tomorrow will be a nice day. Thanks to Zing Seng, he brought me out today. Nice day to everyone. Just now I receive a chocolate from my little angel. I have a little angel but I don't know who he or she is. I am so happy. Thanks to my little angel.

life!!!

I'm exhausted! I feel like there's no one I can trust beside yue when I'm here. If I was having bad mood, I would choose not to let anyone know. Even tough I have a cousin here but when I was at his house, he would put his anger on me. Let me feel like there was no place that I can stay when I need a break. I found a really cruel thing, it is when someone needs your help or when they have nothing to do, it is the only time they will look for you. I really hate this kind of feeling cause I choose to trust everyone but what I got return is something like when they wanted to find me then only they will talk to me. But when I was alone, there were no one with me. I treat everyone good, what I have, I will share. Will think of them when I went shopping or whenever I saw something that I think suits them I will buy it. I will choose to be happy in front of everyone because I don't want my friends to think that I'm always moody. That's all. Doesn't mean that I'm really happy; just want to see everyone is laughing when I'm talking or when they are playing with me. Another thing is I hate people saying back the things that I had done before. I done it before is just my thinking not mature enough, doesn't means that I'm still like before. I have changed! But no ones notice about it, people will just remember the things that I had done before and keep on saying about it. Not really keep on saying but when someone says about it, I will really feel sad. I know I should not do that but everyone is learning and growing up while they do something wrong. I had learned my lesson but seems like it is nothing for everyone. Cruel world! Hate this place a lot; it gave me a lot of sad and unhappy memories. Make me miss my schoolmates and the memories we had before. Good luck guys, I know you guys maybe will also face the same problem as me. But we have to be tougher while we are studying in college and university. Hope that we can meet as soon as possible. I know I'm just a clown in front of you guys; you guys are the best for me. I found out something, it is hard for us to make a friend that you can share your entire secret when in college or university. Maybe the best time for us to make best friend that can share secret only when in primary or secondary school.

always beside me!!!

i wanted to dedicate this song to the "guairens". Thanks for being with me whenever i need you girls. thanks a lot.

going back soon... :(

i spent the whole day playing at ruey hwa's house. i went there in the early morning. both of us spent the whole day don't know doing what. just play and watching some movies. both of us spent a lot of time learn to use the photoshop to edit photo. it's quite fun cause can learn more things. we also got take photo just now. hehe. we use a new method to take photo, it's nt buy using camera and phone. we use my laptop to take photo. very fun when taking photo. we make many funny faces, some of the photos are quite funny. today is the last day of the holiday i went to her house and play, because i am going back tomorrow. sigh~!! haha. it's ok because i will be back soon. don't know how's my life there... happy? unhappy? stressful? don't know~!!!

it's complicated!!!

jus nw watch da chao ji xing guang da dao. hehe. i watch da episod dat my laogong-xu wen jie being kick out of da competition le. sigh sigh~!! i so sad when c he lose even tough i noe da results earlier le. i was so down when watchin den gt c*y. wahaha. den yue msg me n tel me dat i pass all subject. actuali i was reali down but when hear da news dat i pass, i'm reali hapi. but ah, when feel lyk wanna go bak, i don hv mood le. feel lyk goin bak wil onli sad n unhapi nia. hai~~ i'm reali crazy over da xing guang bang!!!! hope dat when i go bak wont hv stupid things happen. plssssss

i'm crazy... can anyone help me??

crazy!!! crazy abt xing guang bang. wahaha. dono y after i watch dat competition, i cant stop watchin it. it's reali nice. dono how 2 say. even tough some of u wont agree wid me but i stil tink dat it is reali nice. hehe. lyk i'm takin drug, cant pull myself out. hehe. siao po ah me. how cum ah? den i'm fallin in love wid 1 of dem. wahaha. but ah hwa n yue say he's nt yentao. i oso dono y. when c him, i wil b veli hapi. i noe he's nt yentao but when he sings, he gt a veli special de mei li. he gt a lil shy shy de. hehe. i lyk dis kind of guy!!! wahaha. falling in love...我爱的人，不是爱我的人

i saw a mouse jus nw... omg!!! nitemare..... say NO 2 mouse. wahaha

xing guang bang!

dis few days i din on9 cos da line here TOO gd le. hehe. lousy til dono wat 2 say ah. but, i do many things dis few days. i watch da chao ji xing guang da dao. it's reali cool ah. reali reali nice n oso veli de gan dong. da participants r reali reali lihai, da voice, da style dey sing n oso da technic. i reali lyk dem. i waste a lots of tears while watchin cos once der's someone leavin den dey wil cry n oso me. hehe. lyk i'm oso 1 of dem. i njoyin when listenin 2 dem. it's reali nice. der r oso some yentao guy. hehe. i lyk dem so much ah. when dey r singin, omg!! being attracted by dem. i wil support dem oways de. heheh. jia you!!

go watch chao ji xing guang da dao!! it's reali nice...

tired... hapi... njoy...

Tired… avday hv 2 fetch mama, didi n mei mei. But I’m hapi cos I can help my mama, she wont b so tired. Let mei mei no need go bak by bus. I reali njoy drivin but when hv traffic jam den it reali need a lot of focus. 2day I go many places shoppin wid ah hwa n yue. I went bak 2 my “lovely” skul. Wahaha. Go eat breakfast, gt drumstick. Wow!!! Delicious.. n I oso drink fruit tea, long tym din drink le. Our skul n oso da students der r reali different eh. Da skul is nt da skul dat I studied b4 le. All change… we went 2 arcade n play. Play bball n oso da dancing machine. Play till we veli tired, shou ruan jiao ruan. Wahaha. N oso sing in da k-box. Wahaha. Veli de hapi, siao siao de us. Hehe. We veli unlucky ah, wanna take lunch oso no place 2 eat. At last, we went 2 mall food court n take our lunch, butter chicken. My sis bought a ps 2. I can play oways le. But hv 2 curi curi de play cos my mama does nt noe abt it. Finally, nw I can on9 le, but no 1 2 chat de. Sienz ah. Ah hwa, yue~~~~ wher r u gals?????

water n rain~!!

2day whole day I stick wid rain o water. So soi n oso quite funny. Haha. Dis mornin I wake up early n help my biao sao. When we r goin 2 leave da factory, I went 2 wash hand cos I wanna pack my things le. Den suddenly da tap putus, den da water keep on flowin. I try 2 fixed it but I cant so I asked 4 help. At dat tym onli me n my biao sao at da factory, but both of us dono how 2 fixes den I try 2 fixed myself lo. While fixing, hehe… all da water splash on me. I’m almost all wet. Cos when u fixed, da water wil simply splash on u. den after a while, hehe!!! I’m so lihai, I fixed it. Wahaha. I can b da ppl dat fined da tap. Hehe. Here rainin da whole afternoon til nite.

I put 1 fren aeroplane, actuali I’m goin bak 2 miri wid him de but who noes my biao ge ask me 2 stay bak 1 more day 2 accompany my biao sao, I cant reject. Den I so paiseh dat I put him aeroplane. Hehe. He’s such a nice guy, he din ngry at me eh. So tomoro he wil folo his fren bak. I’m so nei jiu ah. I’m da 1 ask him 2 accompany me go bak de but I’m oso da 1 put him aeroplane. Hehe.

Nite tym me n my biao sao went 2 pasar malam n buy things 2 eat but it’s rainin heavily. But at last we stil go when da rain is smaller. Siao po(S) hehe. Buy so so so many foods ah, eat til both of us full til cant move le. Hehe.

forgive???

Dis afternoon I gt on9 4 a while 2 check comments den I saw da “mouse” on9. but I din care la. Den after a while cindy find me chat. Den at dat conversation gt da mouse too. I din close dat window, I’m curious how cum cindy add me in da conversation. I jus wanna noe wat’s goin on. Den I ask cindy wat’s da point add me in their conversation, she say nth jus wanna chat nia. Noe wat da mouse do? Hehe. He close dat window!! WTF!! I’m da 1 suppose 2 close eh. Don wan me in da conversation jus say ma, den I leave can liao lo. y shud do until lyk dis leh? Lyk I’m da 1 who spoil their conversation. Wahaha. Den I ask cindy lo, she say he stil wanna b frens wid me. Den I tel her dat, 4 me he’s betrayin me n say out all da things dat I say nt 2 say out. When he’s alone n needs frens, I’m oways der 4 him. Y he wanna do such a things dat make me ngry. He noe I wil b ngry n mad at him, wat’s da point n purpose he do dat. Cindy say he wanna b fren wid me, I dono wat’s da reason dat I cant 4gv him. I reali mad n ngry. 4 me, he cant b forgive…

jus nw me n my biao sao go pasar malam n buy many things 2 eat. so suang ah. wahaha. nx tym i stil wanna go. hehe

missing avone!!!

Erm… most of dem went bak 2 their home town le, onli left me in sibu. I’m goin bak soon as well. Hehe. Even tough dey left onli 4 a few days, but I oredi started 2 miss dem le. I reali don lyk 2 b separated from avone. 4 me da word separate is reali da worst thing ever. Hehe. 2day I cried, nt bcos I’m hapi o sad but is dat someone ask me 1 question den I cant control myself. Since last tym, when I heard someone say abt “dis” topic I sure wil cry. No matter in front who. Hehe. Start from tomoro, I hv 2 wake up early early in da morning le. I miss avone. i miss da life here n oso in bru. I mis da tym we had b4. I mis avthing.

sh*t

Thanks 2 da stupid wireless, I din on9 4 so many days le. Dis few days hv many things happen. Hai~ I tot dis tym I wil gt gd results 4 da exam, but who noes… nope. Mayb I wil fail in da exam. Me n yue say hao le, if 1 of us fail both of us wont cum bak le. I’m so sad. Actuali I reali hv confidence 2 gt gd marks de, but… I 4gt avthin I studied when havin da exam. SHIT. Den I went 2 c zhang dong liang. Wow!! He’s reali reali yentao eh. Den his voice veli nice. But da point I wanna say, da ppl in si*u reali no manners eh. Stand on da chairs n block ppls’ view. Dey r lyk da ppl from kampun 2 city. I told yue, dis kind of scene wont b c in miri o bru de. Oh my god. Reali terrible, dey make me da kai yan jie. At last me n yue don wanna lose, we oso stand on da chair. Stupid ppl.

Yesterday is da last exam 4 me, I oso no confidence wid dat subject. Hai~ my mama gt phone me, I told her dat i hv no confidence den if fail I don wanna study le. She din scold me but she say knt b lyk dat. Hai~~ den at noon tym der’s a gatherin 4 dis sem. 16 ppls r goin n 1 our eng lecturer. After dat we went 2 shoppin. Noe wat? My antibodies reali nt gd. Dey open da window 4 onli a while nia, den I catch a cold le. I’m suferrin nw.

Nite tym, we hv a gatherin agen. Wid hostel de frens. It was reali fun 2 hv so many ppl eatin dinner 2gether. Den keep on singin, shoutin, playin lo. Hehe. I’m sufferin bcos my stupid nose make me keep on sneezing. Hai~!! Hehe. But we r reali hvin fun. After dat, I go bak sleep cos I’m reali nt feelin well. Hehe. Even tough me n yue r goin bak soon but I’m nt reali hapi eh. I oso dono y. both of us keep on shoutin wanna go bak but when da tym cum, nt hapi but gt a lil sad sad. Y??

coffee, my fren???

today is da 1st day we start our final exams. oh my god. dis few days i keep on memorizing all da point 4 exams. my head wil burst soon le. hehe. i don enuf sleep 4 few days le. jus keep on studyin n playin nia. I hv 2 drink coffee avday 2 let myself nt 2 fall asleep while I’m studyin. I woke up at 6 dis morning, wake up 2 study. I’m quite hapi 4 da exam 2day nt reali hapi bcos mayb I cant gt silver merit 4 communication. Some of da points I studied b4 den when I was answerin da question I cant remember da answer. I so mad at myself y I don study earlier 4 da progress test? If I studied at dat tym, I sure wil gt silver merit 4 communication le. All is bcos of da progress test!! Hai~~ yue is asleep nw, den I wanna study da nx subject le. I’m reali tired but I wanna challenge myself. My gastric gt problems le, last tym I oways wil gastric pain den nw I stil keep on drinkin coffee. Once I drink coffee, I wil feel uncomfortable. If I study too much, I wil feel headache n cant continue 2 study le. But no choice, onli coffee can help me nw. bcos I wanna gt gd results, don wanna let my parents disappointed. Hope dat I can do wat I aim 4. I found a reali gd way 2 release stress le. Dis morning b4 I go exam, me, yue n a fren play lami b4 we go exam. Den when luch tym, we play 4 an hour, after dat dey went bak 2 sleep le. Avone is so hardworking n putting efforts 4 their exams. Me too. Good luck 2 avone.

i'm studyin 4 exams?!?!?!!

tomoro is my final exam le. i dono y dis tym i wil go study n memorise those i need 2 memorise. if last tym, i wont care so much jus keep on playin n 4gt abt da exams. da reasons i gv myslef is bcos i tink da fees here is more expensive den when i was in chms. hehe. last nite me n yue learn da NEGARAK*'s rap. we learn til i headache. hehe. den i found dat me n yue r totally different kinds of ppls. den how cum we r such a gd frens leh??? hehe. strange leh. wahah. tonite i'm goin 2 study avthin bcos i wanna gt at least 2 silver merit, dat's mean 2 A-(75-79%). i hope dat i wont disappointed my parents n wanna challenge myslef, bcos i nv feel lyk study n memorise da tips da tcher. i need 2 grow up le. i wanna challenge myself n let avone noe dat i can study de. i'm nt stupid n i hv da ability 2 study!! i'm aimin 2 go 2 south australia university, so start from nw on, i hv 2 push myelf. n learn 2 do all da things nt at last min. good luck avone.

bull shit

b4 i start my blog, i wanna say soli 2 yue. jus nw my fren brin us go out n wanna watch da fire cracker. den we went 2 a place, der's veli quiet den we play n sing all while watin 4 da fire cracker. after dat we went 2 kampung tao 2 limteh. den i receive a msg. it's from da mouse. he say dat he noe i wont 4gv him but hope dat i wil 4gv him cos he don wanna hv yi han in sibu. he stil say dat i delete his frenster, i dono y it had been deleted. i gt delete his phone no la. den i say, i reali wont 4gv him cos he betray me. da things dat i told him nt 2 say out, he say all out. WTF!!! den he say wat i'm nt in his situation. go die la. da purpose he told yue dat shen is cumin when her bday is bcos he wanna let yue noe dat shen is treatin yue well. he noe he's nt as good as shen den wat 4 he wanna say it out n keep on compare wid shen leh? i reali cant 4gv him. when i noe dat, i feel heart break. i told him bcos i trust him, but at last he betray me. i reali treat him as a fren dat's y when he was sad i wil accompany him. who noe at last he end up wid betrayin me. hai~~ i oso dono y i so ngry. n oso dono y i cant 4gv him. it's reali a hard thing 4 me. WTF!!!!!!!!! spoil all my mood. damn him.

snake!!

jus nw when i wanna go dry up my clothes, i saw sumthin in da kitchen. it's underneath the place dat we dry our clothes. it's lyk a rope but i remember our kitchen don't hv any rope. so i bend n c wat is it. it's a snake. at dat moment i'm luky dat i'm nt blur bcos i'm blur 4 few days le. i shout n let my room mate noe der's a snake. den she go find her frens. many guys cum 2 our hostel n wanna make da snake go away. den make da snake go down da hostel. den at last, dey kill it. i heard dat der's pantang, snake shud nt be killed. how? it's da 1st tym i scare snakes. i ever c snakes 4 many many tyms le but dis tym when i c da snake, my heart beats fast n i'm reali fightened!!! mayb is bcos i'm stayin at hostel, don hv "an quan gan" bcos der's no man in our hostel. hai~~ me n yue cant sleep tonite le...

!!!

dis afternoon, me, yue n zing seng went 2 a korean restaurant n hv our lunch. 3 of us eat til veli full until cant walk le. we spent ard Rm 50++

SuShi dat i ordered

veli veli delicious

dis is da mickey kids meal dat yue ordered

da nuggets n hot dogs r tasty

dis is da popular stone rice

da ingredients r carrots, taugeh, eggs, minced meats n lots of vegetable

dis is da omelets dat yue ordered

she say she miss da 1 dat we ate in bru

dis is da korean chicken rice

i had ordered dis

it's hot n spicy, delicious

Yesterday afternoon i went our wid my frens, dey went 2 print their archi posters. while i'm waitin in da car, i took dis pictures.

the trees r dancing n shaking their bodies

n it started 2 rain, the sky turned grey

many ppl say dat last nite would hv 2 moons but i onli saw 1 nia.

it's reali beautiful n bright

Installation nite

Wow!! Last nite I go 2 da rotract club de installation nite. Me n yue all wear formal formal de. hehe. I wear da 1 dat I wear 4 last yr prom nite de. It was quite fun la. Gt many performances n oso things 2 eat. But nt reali full la. I play all da nite, keep on taking photos n talking. Hehe. Our ucs de past president is so cool. She’s a gal. she look lyk a nv qiang ren but she’s friendly n soft when talkin 2 ppl. So satzz, nx tym I oso wanna b lyk her. Nv qiang ren!! Cool man. Der’s sum students from other skul, gt live band performance lagi. But da 1 who play drum nt yentao de. HaI~ all xiao di di nia, I tink we r da oldest of dem all. Haha. Den when we cum bak, we watch shutter. Cool!! 7 of us sit on both me n yue’s bed watchin it. I watch oredi den I noe when da movie is scary. It’s a cool experience. Watching ghost movie at hostel wid a group of frens. Wahaha.

surprise party

yesterday is guairen 1 de bufday! hehe. me n our hostel frens pakat 2 gv her a surprise party. den dey blow many many balloons put inside our room. when we cum bak, our room is fill wif balloons. so romantic~~!! wahaha. at nite tym we r havin a party. den i'm lyk siao po keep on shoutin n laughin all nite. it's quite fun cos since i'm here, i nv hv a tym is so fun de. we sing songs. it's veli veli hapi. at dat tym, i feel dat i oredi release all my stress. den when all of dem go bak, me, yue, song n khim say overnite at our hostel. they r our frens dat stay in hostel too. we play truth o dare. dono y i can tel dem avthin, jus lyk when i'm in bru, i can tel 2 yen n hwa. den we share our past 2gether. i lyk dis kind of feelin, cos i can b myself in front of dem. i don need 2 worry whether i hurt dem o nt. cos dey mature enuf 2 tink dat whether i'm jokin o serious. 4 of us sleep on 2 single bed. it's quite crowded but i'm enjoyin it. cos it's lyk we r a family den can share avthin. 1 more thing i nearly 4gt... i do sumthin dat veli embarress. i'm veli "high" all nite, den when i wanna stand up i step on my shoes dat i wear at hostel de. den i din zu yi, i fell down. den gt a guy show his hand n wanna hold me up but i jus sit on da floor n keep on laughin. siao po~!! wahaha.

I miss Guairens!!

i hv nth 2 do so dcide 2 create a blog. at least hv sumthin 2 do. hehe. dis afternoon when i cum bak from skul i saw ah hwa's comment. she wrote sumthing n make my tears fall. she say dat i'm noisy but nw she wish dat i'm oways noisy. hai~ how cum? me myself oso dono. jus feel lyk missing hwa n yen so so so much. n oso da tym we spent 2gether. i'm reali regret 2 study in ucs. dono y i wil choose a place wid such a low standard n oso students wid low quality, even tough i'm nt a reali gd students. hehe. i'm reali suffering, havin lots of stress. dono wher the stress cum from n oso dono wat stress is it. jus wish 2 go bak n leave dis stupid place. da ppl here so strange, i noe a gal cum from miri de. she's reali lyk a small kids. when i noe her, den i start thinkin, how cum der a "small kids" in college. den aynthing i say, she's hurt by me. but i tink 4 most of the ppl, no 1 wil b hurt if i say lyk dat. hai~~ make me feel stress n uncomfortable when talkin 2 her. i hav 2 talk carefully, if n later she wil say i hurt her o jus cry der. wtf!! when i start to noe many ppl den da problems n troubles cum. der's no 1 day me n yue r reali hapi when we r here. if we r hapi den da nx min wil hv sumthing happen. jus bad thing la... hai~~ brunei, guairens, daddy, mummy, mei mei, didi, my bed.... i miss u guys~!!!