trip at kuching...

Just now we went shopping and bought many things; spent a lot of money. I become moody, I just released that I spent a lot of money within this 2 months. I felt sorry to my mum because I spent money to buy many useless things. When they were playing snooker, I don't even have the mood the play with them. I can't stop thinking that matter. But when I knew that we are going to karaoke, I felt very excited.

I was unhappy because the plan that we had planned not going smoothly. The place that we wanted to go had closed down. Actually they wanted to watch movie while we went to sing. Then because of us, they went to find another place to sing. We were really unlucky, that place was full of peoples. Me and yue decide not to sing and went to eat supper. Some of them feel unhappy because if not both of us, they were already watching movie at the cinema. I felt like because of us, many peoples were not happy.

We don't want them to be unhappy then both of us start to be crazy. We told everyone that we love them. Started to laugh, shout, sing and being crazy. Everyone felt that both of us were childish because do such a boring and stupid things. We just want everyone to be happy. At last we end up with eating supper. Luckily everyone smile and having fun while eating supper.

We took lots of pictures, today is the last day we were in kuching. I don't want to go back so fast because I still wanted to go shopping and play with my fake "family". We had lots of fun on this trip.

need to stop thinkin

I need to stop thinking all the nonsense. Stop!! I keep on thinking the nonsense and make myself bad mood. Why I will become like this? I'm doing nothing but just keep on turning my brain. This makes me having really bad mood. I don't know that whether I wrote the blog yesterday is a correct thing or not. Many peoples will think that I'm childish, but I just wanted to let everyone knows that why I was having bad mood. Today, something that make me bad mood happens. It's about assignments things. All the assignments that our lecturers gave were really difficult. I don't know whether I can finish it or not even tough we had a 1 month holidays. Then, I keep on thinking the same thing that happened yesterday. I forgave 1 of them because I receive a sorry. For the other one, I can't forgive you. You didn't say sorry and don't even felt sorry to me. You are too selfish; the things that you think are only about you yourself. You will just say that I'm too childish for everything. I'm fed up with you, how can you be so selfish?

Just now a friend message me, I ask that person whether thinks that I'm very childish to write that blog. That person say can't be said out. I feel sad. How come no one understands what I'm thinking and keep on saying that I'm childish? My mood is being affected because of that message. I had a long talk with yue and ask her whether I did the wrong things or not. It is because I think that everything that I did sure will have someone says that I'm too childish to do that or say that I need not care so much. They really don't know what I'm thinking.

Thanks to my friends; who gave me presents, who greet me, who celebrate with me. I really appreciate what you all did. The happiest thing is that I received a mickey mouse's necklace, bracelet and shirt from my friends. Thanks for being so nice to me.

Worst birthday ever :'(

Thanks a lot to those friends and peoples that greet me birthday, I'm very happy to receive the greetings. But, I'm having bad mood today. I don't know why those unhappy things happen when I'm happy. Just now our lecturer told us that we will have an assignment to do during the holidays, this is not the problem. The problem is it needs to finish in group, it can't finish in individually. I start to think, who are the peoples that willing to do the assignment with me? It is because something happened before. Sigh~! This is the first thing that why I'm unhappy. The second is my cousin wants me to help him and I need to spend the time for my assignment to help him. I don't want to reject him because I had already rejected him once. The third is I have no enough time to finish my assignments. I thought that I can do it after class but who knows? The fourth is I will have lunch with my hostel's friends but I don't think that I can come back on time; I don't want to disappoint them. The fifth is I think I had made someone feel annoying because when I need help, I will keep on asking. I know both of us have to do the same assignments, you have your own to finish. Sorry if I really bother you and make you feel annoying.

The unlucky things not only that, when I went back to hostel I keep rushing for my assignment because I don't want them to wait for me. When I called them, they told me that they had left. I was angry at them because they didn't wait for me. No one called me and confirms whether I was following or not. Not only that, when yue called them and ask why didn't they wait for me. They said that someone said that I'm not going. My god! I really very upset because they are those I treated the best in the hostel. All of them went and left me alone. Tomorrow is the due date for my assignment and they went to print themselves. I was very sad, I cried. I care you guys but no one cares for me. Those who i just get along with them will still care for my feelings but you guys wont!!!!!!!!!!! What are friends for????

Then, I wanted to thank yue and kang ming, both of them accompany me go print my assignments. We went by bus. They told me that they will celebrate with me tonight but I have no mood to celebrate with them. Then, they told me that I had to appreciate those who willing to celebrate with me. I choose to go for the celebration. The worst thing is, they didn’t felt sorry to me. They just keep on asking me whether I'm angry. WTF!!! How can I not angry them? I'm taking the same course with them, they have assignments to pass up; so am I. How can you guys be so selfish? I treated you guys so well but at the end this is what I got back. I told them that I'm angry, they didn't say sorry to me. They just show that they are unhappy. WHAT?? I should be the one very angry and unhappy. How you guys can did this me? This is the worst birthday ever!!!

anyone can help me?

I will be very busy within this few days, I need to finish all 4 assignments within this few days, but I haven't started anything yet. Everyone is worrying for their assignment but I'm playing everyday. I know I shouldn't be like this but I can't control myself. Once there are people playing, I will sure join them. I don't even have a schedule for my assignments. I know that I should work harder for the progress test and also assignments, but I won't even think of doing when I'm free. There are many friends and peoples that beside me and will ask me to study and start doing assignments, the reaction I gave them is “I will study or do tomorrow”. Thanks to those who ever advice and pushing me during test and assignments. I will try to change and become good girl, don't play so much and studies must be the first but not playing. I start to sleep late everyday, play with all the friends. Besides that, I love to think a lot when I am alone. I was kept thinking many things but I don’t know what I was thinking. I love to see peoples' action and also reaction, try to know what they are thinking at that time. Once I start thinking or I have nothing to do, straight away I will be very moody. Which will let people thinks that I'm having bad mood, I wasn't having bad mood is just I was thinking a lot. Who can help me with this?? I start to give myself a lot of stress which I will never do it before... I really feel stress but I don't know how to release my stress beside playing...

sy n yue r crazy gals...

Yesterday I woke up early just to study for my progress test. This was the first time I being hard working in my studies. I felt so happy because I know all the answers for the test. Even tough I can’t get full marks but I am really happy for what I did. Actually, I studied so hard is just wanted to win a person. But I wanted to thank that person, if not I won’t be studying so hard. I will just ignore the progress test and simply do. I felt that studying actually is a quite happy thing. When you memorized all the points and can do every question with confidence. I will study hard for all the progress test and also exam. I’m sure I can do it.

In the afternoon, we go played volleyball. I was so happy because I found quite a lot if peoples that played volleyball. We played till the sky become dark then we walked out to eat and celebrate because I know how to do the progress test.

After the dinner, we went to school and played a game. The game needs quite a lot of peoples to play. The game consists of a killer, spy, doctor and citizens. The citizens and spy need to cooperate to find out who is the killer. Me and khim are so good in acting, no one knows that both of us were the killer when it was our turn.

Crazy girls, yue and yee, went to the boy’s hostel and play mahjong from 2 o’clock midnight till 5 something in the morning. Both of us didn’t feel sleepy and we had classes at 8 o’clock in the morning. I went back and took a bath, I slept at 6 something. After around an hour, I woke up. Yue didn’t go to school. I was so surprise that I can sleep a little then still go to school. I love this kind of college’s life a lot. Even tough I played a lot but I still study for all the test and exam. My time is fully used.

bowling...

Today I was so excited because we have a basketball friendly match with the other group of the student Christian fellowship. The friendly match has cancelled because it was raining since morning. We changed our trip to play bowling. I was so lucky that I'm still under 18 years old; I pay lesser than the others because all of them are above 18. We played 2 matches. It was quite fun because it was such a long time I didn’t play bowling. All the guys were so strong; their marks were higher than all the girls. They had many styles of throwing the ball like by using two hands. They were so funny, keep on saying nonsense. After that, we went to eat but some of the others went back to the hostel. The shop name is “chopstick”, the services were so lousy. We order “salad sotong”, but all we ate is just the flour. While we were ordering foods, the waiter said that it was better for us to order the same foods so that the foods would be cooked faster. How a waiter cans said that to the customer. It was the worst shop ever. I would never go there.

sick...

I went to play basketball with the guys yesterday. I don't know what the reason that my leg cramp at the midnight. I keep on shouting pain then yue was woken up by me. She thought I was saying dream words. Then she helped me. Sorry yue, I woke you up in the midnight. Morning when I woke up by the alarm, I ask yue to wake up but actually she was having classes at 10. Thanks to yue by saving my leg.

Today I don't know why suddenly got a cold. I was not feeling well but I was having classes form 8 in the morning till 3 in the afternoon. I felt so uncomfortable because I keep on sneezing and make me can't concentrate to what the lecturers were teaching. In the afternoon the weather was so hot but I was wearing the jacket. I didn’t feel hot.

Just now we went to play basketball again and also ping pong. Everyone enjoys the time when playing. Then we went to the coffee shop and have a break. We were talking and laughing around. There was nothing to eat because the time is too late. Our friend drove us to a place that is far from our college. That place was very spooky, no one lives there and there was no car passing by. When we returned, we sang the children song that we learnt before. At that moment, everyone becomes a small kid.