Blur~

I was like become more and more blur. I don't know what the reason. Hehe. Keep on doing something stupid. This morning when I was ready to class, I kept on forgetting things. I forgot to take my socks because I would be wearing sport shoes. After I took my socks, I locked the door.

Then when I wanted to leave my hostel, only I realize I forgot to take my book and notes. How can a person be so blur? I think I’m the only one being blur. Not only this… I was tried to boil the hot water. I wonder why the kettle so quiet so I go check... Oh~ I forgot to on the switch...

I was quite unlucky today because the bottle's cap was opened. My bag and all the things inside my bag were all wet. Damn!! My bag was flooded and my chair was wet too...

Those PEOPLE!!!!

I realize that there are many types of people on the earth. My dad told me that we must treat people well. No matter they appreciate or not. But I don’t agree with my dad. I really know that not all the people are good people when something happen. The people with kind-heart wont live long but those with evil-hearted will live longer.

I found that some of the people like to be friendly and nice to you but actually you can’t imagine what will they do or say behind you. Those people are all fakers, will smile in front of you but become devil when you are not there.

Those people don’t even accept people’s idea. For them, only the idea they give is the best. I really don’t like to be with those people. Those people make me suffer so much. I’m sure all of them will say:” what for you care them so much, just do whatever you wan!” This is not an easy thing.

It's life!!!! :'(

These 2 days have an unbelievable thing happened in my life. How I wish it was just a dream. I really can’t face that thing. When I tried to sleep, that thing will be in my brain like presenting a slideshow. I felt so tired and can’t believe that this thing will happen in my life. When I woke up, I start thinking… Was it a dream? Nope, it was not. It really happens.

Sigh~ this incident cause everyone very sad and worried. I told myself, I need to be tough enough to face this thing. I can’t be sad and keep on crying but I need to help them and tried my best to pray for them. I really hope it will end with a happy ending.

my result!

A very big thing happened this morning. I went to appeal for the subject that I failed; the result came out this morning. I had failed. I thought that I will cry out loudly but I didn't. This is what I predict so I need to be strong enough to face this result. I told some of my very good friends, I'm so happy that they didn't ask me anything about it. If they ask something about it, I think that’s the time I will be crying out loudly. Thanks to you guys for not asking me anything just listening to me. I'm strong enough to face this result!!

Good experience!!

Wednesday is the fellowship night. I went there almost every Wednesday. Tonight is quite special not because of the programs. It was because I was 1 of the person leading to sing. There were 3 more persons singing with me, they are Alan, Peter and Yue.

I was so nervous till my hand become so cold. It was like I'm holding the ice in the air-con room. My hands keep on shaking and I can hear my sound was like shivering. Even though the performance was not very good but at least I got an experience. A very good experience!

What a terrible night!!!

It's a miracle that my roommate had sleep then I'm still awake here. Hehe. I had stopped the job teaching kids because I felt so tired. I need to teach and study. I think I can't handle so I ask my friend to work. I'm retired! Then the boss phoned in the afternoon, she told me to help her teach tonight.

The nightmare starts. I had phobia with kids, when they make noise I will feel very angry. Maybe my face is too scary; the kids quite scare me and don't dare to make noise. The boss put a note and told me what I should do. I never teach those kids before so when I teach I felt worried.

I did a mistake. I gave wrong papers to those kids. The one should give to the primary 5; I give it to the primary 3 kids. Then the one only for primary 5, I give to primary 6 too. I was like so blur and don't know what I'm doing. Luckily, the boss came back on time. I felt so embarrassed; I hope that there will be a hole for me to hide inside.

Tomorrow night is the first time I will be singing in the student fellowship. After the tuition, I'm back to the hostel and practice singing. I can't remember all the melody of the songs and kept sang wrong. What a terrible night!!! Now I'm so energetic here. I had tried to finish my homework. Hope that I can sleep soundly later.

Present from "potatoes family"

I had receive some present from some of the "Potatoes Family". They went to K.L. for a vacation. They bought something nice for me. These are the presents that I got.

This is a bear "piggy" bank from my dearest po po... Miss Clara. This is for me to save money and go to K.L. It's so cute!!!

This is the Minnie Mouse I got from my son, Mr. Peter. Haha! (If he sees this, he sure wil chop my head off) This pink Minnie looks cute. I love it so much!!

The bear bear box with a ribbon with it has cookies inside. The cookies look delicious! The small bottle beside it has lots of colourful sweets inside. These are the present that I got from my suk po, Miss. Shirley...

This socks are so nice. Hehe. This is what I got from my suk gong, Mr. Ah Kai. He told me that he don't wanted to buy things that not useful. So at last he bought me this pair of socks. It's really quite useful!

Ferrero Rocher, the most delicious chocolates... I love the most!! Hehe. This is not from K.L. but from Brunei. Got it from my jie jie, Miss. Rui Yue. Haha. I haven't ate it for a long time. So I'm quite happy when I got this.

lost my confidence...:'(

Today is a big day for the student of UCS, because the results release today. I predict that I will fail for some subject, predict comes true. I failed 1 of the subject. When I knew that I failed, I was not sad. Don't know what the reason is. But after I told my parents, I felt sad and sorry for them. I make both my parents and friends disappointed.

I told my mum that I don't want to study anymore, she ask me whether what can I do if I don't study. I don't know how to answer the question. I just feel like wasting their money then both my brother and sister are studying too. My parents need to support 3 kids studying and they are having tuition. Till last my mum ask me make the decision myself, ask me discuss with my dad whether to continue or stop.

I really ever think of stop studying. I told my friend, she said don't give up; there is a chance for me to study so I need to appreciate. But one of my friends advises me to chance course. I don't know what I should do, felt so helpless. Luckily, some of my friends support me and ask me not to give up. They gave me lots of support and confidence to continue my studies. Thanks a lot, friends. I will always remember what you guys told me.

I lost all my confidence in everything. Don't know what had happened to me. Just now while I was teaching tuition, I was so moody. The kids keep on asking me some question; I don't know how to answer their question because while in Brunei I never studied that syllabus before. This also causes me lost my confidence.