anyone can help me?

I will be very busy within this few days, I need to finish all 4 assignments within this few days, but I haven't started anything yet. Everyone is worrying for their assignment but I'm playing everyday. I know I shouldn't be like this but I can't control myself. Once there are people playing, I will sure join them. I don't even have a schedule for my assignments. I know that I should work harder for the progress test and also assignments, but I won't even think of doing when I'm free. There are many friends and peoples that beside me and will ask me to study and start doing assignments, the reaction I gave them is “I will study or do tomorrow”. Thanks to those who ever advice and pushing me during test and assignments. I will try to change and become good girl, don't play so much and studies must be the first but not playing. I start to sleep late everyday, play with all the friends. Besides that, I love to think a lot when I am alone. I was kept thinking many things but I don’t know what I was thinking. I love to see peoples' action and also reaction, try to know what they are thinking at that time. Once I start thinking or I have nothing to do, straight away I will be very moody. Which will let people thinks that I'm having bad mood, I wasn't having bad mood is just I was thinking a lot. Who can help me with this?? I start to give myself a lot of stress which I will never do it before... I really feel stress but I don't know how to release my stress beside playing...

sy n yue r crazy gals...

Yesterday I woke up early just to study for my progress test. This was the first time I being hard working in my studies. I felt so happy because I know all the answers for the test. Even tough I can’t get full marks but I am really happy for what I did. Actually, I studied so hard is just wanted to win a person. But I wanted to thank that person, if not I won’t be studying so hard. I will just ignore the progress test and simply do. I felt that studying actually is a quite happy thing. When you memorized all the points and can do every question with confidence. I will study hard for all the progress test and also exam. I’m sure I can do it.

In the afternoon, we go played volleyball. I was so happy because I found quite a lot if peoples that played volleyball. We played till the sky become dark then we walked out to eat and celebrate because I know how to do the progress test.

After the dinner, we went to school and played a game. The game needs quite a lot of peoples to play. The game consists of a killer, spy, doctor and citizens. The citizens and spy need to cooperate to find out who is the killer. Me and khim are so good in acting, no one knows that both of us were the killer when it was our turn.

Crazy girls, yue and yee, went to the boy’s hostel and play mahjong from 2 o’clock midnight till 5 something in the morning. Both of us didn’t feel sleepy and we had classes at 8 o’clock in the morning. I went back and took a bath, I slept at 6 something. After around an hour, I woke up. Yue didn’t go to school. I was so surprise that I can sleep a little then still go to school. I love this kind of college’s life a lot. Even tough I played a lot but I still study for all the test and exam. My time is fully used.

bowling...

Today I was so excited because we have a basketball friendly match with the other group of the student Christian fellowship. The friendly match has cancelled because it was raining since morning. We changed our trip to play bowling. I was so lucky that I'm still under 18 years old; I pay lesser than the others because all of them are above 18. We played 2 matches. It was quite fun because it was such a long time I didn’t play bowling. All the guys were so strong; their marks were higher than all the girls. They had many styles of throwing the ball like by using two hands. They were so funny, keep on saying nonsense. After that, we went to eat but some of the others went back to the hostel. The shop name is “chopstick”, the services were so lousy. We order “salad sotong”, but all we ate is just the flour. While we were ordering foods, the waiter said that it was better for us to order the same foods so that the foods would be cooked faster. How a waiter cans said that to the customer. It was the worst shop ever. I would never go there.

sick...

I went to play basketball with the guys yesterday. I don't know what the reason that my leg cramp at the midnight. I keep on shouting pain then yue was woken up by me. She thought I was saying dream words. Then she helped me. Sorry yue, I woke you up in the midnight. Morning when I woke up by the alarm, I ask yue to wake up but actually she was having classes at 10. Thanks to yue by saving my leg.

Today I don't know why suddenly got a cold. I was not feeling well but I was having classes form 8 in the morning till 3 in the afternoon. I felt so uncomfortable because I keep on sneezing and make me can't concentrate to what the lecturers were teaching. In the afternoon the weather was so hot but I was wearing the jacket. I didn’t feel hot.

Just now we went to play basketball again and also ping pong. Everyone enjoys the time when playing. Then we went to the coffee shop and have a break. We were talking and laughing around. There was nothing to eat because the time is too late. Our friend drove us to a place that is far from our college. That place was very spooky, no one lives there and there was no car passing by. When we returned, we sang the children song that we learnt before. At that moment, everyone becomes a small kid.

difference of childish and mature -_-"

Today, I found out that guys are separated into 2 kinds. Some of them are childish but some are mature. I compare some of them; make me think that guys are really scary because those which are childish will do something that it is unexpected. I played basketball with 2 groups of guys. The first group, some of them are almost the same age with us but all of them are older than us. When playing basketball with them, they won’t be saying that girls are weak but they will give girls a chance to show ourselves. They will set some rules like guys can’t shot the ball at an area or when girls are going to shot the ball, they won’t attack the girls. They are only few guys will play basketball with girls. They won’t look down at girls or they won’t think that losing to girls is a shame. These kinds of guys are known as the mature ones.

The second team is the childish ones. They will keep on playing “one man show”. They won’t let girls have the chance to shot the ball and keep on attacking girls. They will also use some rude words to do body attack. Make girls angry with their words. They are not enjoying the game but just wanted to win. For them, losing to girls is a shame. While playing with them, they are very rude; keep on pushing or just wanted to let you foul. Your mood will be affected during playing basketball with them. They don’t think much but for them win is the most important thing.

I had talk to 2 of my good friends here. I told them everything; what I think of them and what had they did that hurt me. One of them cried because I said that she changed a lot, not the person that I knew last time. I think she will “be back soon” with our help. I really treasure them because i know it's hard to me to find someone that really treasure me. The most important thing is, i will always treasure the relationship with the guairens.

college's life

I did something that I think should be done in college's life. Yesterday night I went to play basketball. It was around 10 something, we played till 12 midnight. It really fun because seems like I'm back to my high school period. After volleyball training, me, yen and hwa went to play basketball with shen. He's the only guy that will play basketball with us and compete with the other guys. That time I played till the whole shirt wet. Even tough I'm tired but I enjoy that feeling. Playing with friends and all the stress and unhappy things are gone. Yesterday I had the same feeling too. I knew some new friends that like to play basketball and also volleyball. They are really nice peoples. The moment we played, we were enjoying and keep on laughing. We were competing to each other. Then the next day I'm having classes at 8 in the morning. I know that I will be very tired when having class but at least while I'm playing, I enjoyed it. This is the college's life that I want. Do something that is unexpected.

My day...

Yesterday we went to play badminton. I played till all wet. I think I was the only one played till so wet, seems like I had taken a bath or I went under the rain. It was fun and besides playing, can also keep fit. We went to have a sit and rest for a while. After that we all went to the place that we loved the most, arcade. We brought more friends there. The game we loved the most, of course is initial D. I was very happy because I won a guy called old man. He loses to me once before but after that no one ever loses to him. I am the champion. Yue also not bad, she won peter also. That’s mean girls also can win guys when racing cars. The old man was very mad when he loses to me so he keeps on challenging me. I won the first and second match but lose to him at the third match. He played with me was just to prove that he can win me. At that moment, for me guys wanted to prove that they were the best and can win girls in everything. That makes me think that guys are very stubborn. After happy, sure have something that is unhappy. I went to my cousin’s factory; he wanted me to teach him how to download songs. He told me that he will go Emily’s grandma house eat dinner. I did not follow them. I was alone at the factory, yue phone me whether wanted them to come fetch me back after they ate their dinner. I do not know how; go back with them or wait till my cousin back. I chose to go back with them because I was really tired. Then I think my cousin was mad at me because actually he wanted me to help him today but he did not call me. He will always call me when he wanted me to help him. I do not know how to face him. My mummy call me just now, she had finish her vacation. She went to Bali Island and K.L with her friends. Now she is in Miri. Hope that today will have a nice day.