headache...

Oh my god!! My head is going to burst. It starts raining from the early morning. I went out without an umbrella and now I’m having headache. Everyone must remember to bring umbrella when it’s raining outside. It is because it’s quite suffering when headache. This makes my mood very bad.

I feel like everyone besides me keep on saying something about love. Is love everything for everyone? I don’t think so. Then I found out something, the thinking of human is really strange. And also the relationships between humans are weak and can’t be tested.

Sorry to someone because I think I'm rude to you. If I'm realy rude or hurt you, I'm sorry.

Tagged...

I was tagged...

Q1. You can’t stand the most?
A person that is over confidence and proud.
Q2. What is true love?
I don’t really know. Maybe is something that enjoying life with the person that you loved.
Q3. What you hope before death?
Done everything that I wanted to do and enjoying my life.
Q4. Had one-night stand before? Why?
Of course not, because I hate that kind of things?? Not really know.
Q5. Will you change the point-of-view of a particular person because of his words?
Not really, I will find out whether is that the truth or not.
Q6. What you wanted the most to accomplish now?
All the assignments.
Q7. If your husband have an ultra-marriage love, will you cry or fight or suicide?
Of course not, what’s the point? I will be tougher and live happily ever after.
Q8. How can you feel happiness?
When everything going smoothly.

The following 8 luckiest persons, you know what you should do?
Ruey hwa
Wan yen
Hua lik
Yung wah
Zhi siong
Khim
Zing Seng
Pei yi

happy... ^^

Finally we had ended our trip at Kuching. Feels like a boring holidays going to start soon. Everyone went back to their hometown but I’m going to stay here. Ha-ha. It’s ok for me because I need 2 concentrate on my assignments and my sister and brother won’t be at home.

I spent the whole day at grandpa’s hostel, online and chit chatting. Grandma came and played with us. At night time we went out and eat. Grandma brought us went shopping. We went to visit my father and also grandpa. We saw funny masks and wore it. I’m having quite a happy day. Keep on doing something funny and stupid. I love and enjoying this kind of life.

This is what we did at the supermarket. A small kid saw us taking photo, her emotion shows that how come we were doing this.

Friendss...

Our trip had ended today. Everyone went back for their holidays. We were separated, some going back by plane to miri, to sibu; we went back to sibu by bus. I went to the airport to say goodbye with them. I ever told khim that her friends didn't treated her as a closed friend. She talked to me, she said that she also feel that they had something hiding her. She felt very upset. I'm a kind of person that is very sensitive with those relationships thing. But she's those even someone betray her, she doesn't know. I hope that she will be tougher to face everything and become more alert to everything.

It rains the whole journey. I become moody and start thinking all those nonsense. I felt lucky because I think a lot. That makes me know what the others are thinking and also what will happened later. Besides that, I will also alert to everything that are surrounding me. I hate those who say my thinking is childish. Please stop saying me childish. I admit that while I'm playing, I'm childish. But my thinking is not childish; at least I'm more mature compare to the others.

trip at kuching...

Just now we went shopping and bought many things; spent a lot of money. I become moody, I just released that I spent a lot of money within this 2 months. I felt sorry to my mum because I spent money to buy many useless things. When they were playing snooker, I don't even have the mood the play with them. I can't stop thinking that matter. But when I knew that we are going to karaoke, I felt very excited.

I was unhappy because the plan that we had planned not going smoothly. The place that we wanted to go had closed down. Actually they wanted to watch movie while we went to sing. Then because of us, they went to find another place to sing. We were really unlucky, that place was full of peoples. Me and yue decide not to sing and went to eat supper. Some of them feel unhappy because if not both of us, they were already watching movie at the cinema. I felt like because of us, many peoples were not happy.

We don't want them to be unhappy then both of us start to be crazy. We told everyone that we love them. Started to laugh, shout, sing and being crazy. Everyone felt that both of us were childish because do such a boring and stupid things. We just want everyone to be happy. At last we end up with eating supper. Luckily everyone smile and having fun while eating supper.

We took lots of pictures, today is the last day we were in kuching. I don't want to go back so fast because I still wanted to go shopping and play with my fake "family". We had lots of fun on this trip.

need to stop thinkin

I need to stop thinking all the nonsense. Stop!! I keep on thinking the nonsense and make myself bad mood. Why I will become like this? I'm doing nothing but just keep on turning my brain. This makes me having really bad mood. I don't know that whether I wrote the blog yesterday is a correct thing or not. Many peoples will think that I'm childish, but I just wanted to let everyone knows that why I was having bad mood. Today, something that make me bad mood happens. It's about assignments things. All the assignments that our lecturers gave were really difficult. I don't know whether I can finish it or not even tough we had a 1 month holidays. Then, I keep on thinking the same thing that happened yesterday. I forgave 1 of them because I receive a sorry. For the other one, I can't forgive you. You didn't say sorry and don't even felt sorry to me. You are too selfish; the things that you think are only about you yourself. You will just say that I'm too childish for everything. I'm fed up with you, how can you be so selfish?

Just now a friend message me, I ask that person whether thinks that I'm very childish to write that blog. That person say can't be said out. I feel sad. How come no one understands what I'm thinking and keep on saying that I'm childish? My mood is being affected because of that message. I had a long talk with yue and ask her whether I did the wrong things or not. It is because I think that everything that I did sure will have someone says that I'm too childish to do that or say that I need not care so much. They really don't know what I'm thinking.

Thanks to my friends; who gave me presents, who greet me, who celebrate with me. I really appreciate what you all did. The happiest thing is that I received a mickey mouse's necklace, bracelet and shirt from my friends. Thanks for being so nice to me.

Worst birthday ever :'(

Thanks a lot to those friends and peoples that greet me birthday, I'm very happy to receive the greetings. But, I'm having bad mood today. I don't know why those unhappy things happen when I'm happy. Just now our lecturer told us that we will have an assignment to do during the holidays, this is not the problem. The problem is it needs to finish in group, it can't finish in individually. I start to think, who are the peoples that willing to do the assignment with me? It is because something happened before. Sigh~! This is the first thing that why I'm unhappy. The second is my cousin wants me to help him and I need to spend the time for my assignment to help him. I don't want to reject him because I had already rejected him once. The third is I have no enough time to finish my assignments. I thought that I can do it after class but who knows? The fourth is I will have lunch with my hostel's friends but I don't think that I can come back on time; I don't want to disappoint them. The fifth is I think I had made someone feel annoying because when I need help, I will keep on asking. I know both of us have to do the same assignments, you have your own to finish. Sorry if I really bother you and make you feel annoying.

The unlucky things not only that, when I went back to hostel I keep rushing for my assignment because I don't want them to wait for me. When I called them, they told me that they had left. I was angry at them because they didn't wait for me. No one called me and confirms whether I was following or not. Not only that, when yue called them and ask why didn't they wait for me. They said that someone said that I'm not going. My god! I really very upset because they are those I treated the best in the hostel. All of them went and left me alone. Tomorrow is the due date for my assignment and they went to print themselves. I was very sad, I cried. I care you guys but no one cares for me. Those who i just get along with them will still care for my feelings but you guys wont!!!!!!!!!!! What are friends for????

Then, I wanted to thank yue and kang ming, both of them accompany me go print my assignments. We went by bus. They told me that they will celebrate with me tonight but I have no mood to celebrate with them. Then, they told me that I had to appreciate those who willing to celebrate with me. I choose to go for the celebration. The worst thing is, they didn’t felt sorry to me. They just keep on asking me whether I'm angry. WTF!!! How can I not angry them? I'm taking the same course with them, they have assignments to pass up; so am I. How can you guys be so selfish? I treated you guys so well but at the end this is what I got back. I told them that I'm angry, they didn't say sorry to me. They just show that they are unhappy. WHAT?? I should be the one very angry and unhappy. How you guys can did this me? This is the worst birthday ever!!!